Over a month after Chase was born, adrenaline rush of having a newborn had waned and the exhaustion had fully set in. I kept thinking to myself, I can not WAIT until this sleep deprivation stage is over and I can feel normal again! But then I would look down at this tiny being…quietly cooing and contouring his little body around mine and smiling in his sleep. I didn’t want this stage to be over. I wanted to suspend it, and embrace it. In a few years this little one may not want to cuddle his mama anymore. So I’ll take the ‘L’ in the sleep department for now, if it gives me more moments like this.